Nobody uses this anymore. It is now an online diary again.

I originally started this to rant to myself, then everyone else read it, and I sadly conformed my blogs to what would please them.

But I'm done with that now.

I'm also apparently done with grammar. I'm sorry if this offends you (actually, I'm not. HAHA!).


I feel like I have failed. I feel like I'm not the person I thought I could be. I'm lazy, arrogant, and undeserving of all I have. I know my family will be disappointed when they find out who I really am. I was hoping it would never happen. We don't talk much, I thought I could avoid the truth.

I miss Carly, and Becca, and Alex. I miss how simple life was. I know it's not exceptionally hard now, but I hate this phase. It's not hard enough that I feel challenged to rise to the occasion, but it's not easy enough to just coast by.






Maybe I miss being loved. Appreciated. Wanted.

I almost didn't want to post anything else...

I had 69 posts.
That amused my little perverted mind.

I'm currently sitting in my home away from home away from home. The ROTC building. I swear, I spend more time here a day than I do sleeping (though I do occasionally sleep here...).
I have to wait for Daniel to get out of class so that I can go home and sleep. I am operating on less than 5 hours of sleep a night for the last two weeks (with two exceptions). It does not make for a happy Katie. But it makes for a Katie who will get into shape relatively quickly.

Ranger challenge is coming up in 7 weeks. We don't know who the captain and sergeant are for each team yet. I'm hoping for captain, but I'm not expecting it. My pt score isn't great. My grades are not fantastic. I'm good at keeping the team organized, and I've done ranger challenge longer than any of the other females, but I'm thinking Hill might get it. She's smart, physically fit, determined, but a little too soft spoken for my liking (at least for a team captain). She wants to be sergeant, but I don't think she has really told anyone about her little desire.
I told MAJ Z that I didn't want to do ranger challenge this year, and he just laughed and said I had no choice. I feel like if I did have a choice, I probably would want to do it, but I really shouldn't. My grades are going to slip because of it, there's no doubt in my mind about that. I just hope that I get above a 3.7 this semester. I'm really hoping my overall evlauations and grades and OML here on campus can lead to me getting Medical Service Corp. I've reevalutated my life, and I've decided to go on a different route. I want to be a medevac pilot now. They're not only trained pilots, but they're also trained in EMT. I wouldn't only be working in the war, but I could also be used on every base. The great thing about medical is it's needed everywhere. That way being stationed with Daniel won't be too difficult. I wouldn't like being away from him for too long. Actually, I don't like being away from him at all. Kinda creepy how dependent I am on him. But I love him, and I know he depends on me exactly the same way :]

I just watched an episode of house where a female (ohdearlord, the army has me used to female and not girl) blogger wrote about everything in her life. But house figured it out when he asked her how her poops looked. I feel like Carly Shreck would have written that in her blog (if she still blogged). And it made me miss Carly Shreck. Like a lot.
And all the rest of you people who might one day pretend to read this :]

Daniel should be done soon. Goodnight everybody :D

So, my old roomate, Ashley Smith...

decided that there was nothing left for her in corpus, so she got her father to break her lease and move her and all her stuff to Florida.

Do you wanna know why she thought she has nothing left? Her boyfriend dumped her, and then strung her along for a few weeks. I know, she has the right to be upset, mope and cry a little. But to pick up, drop out of college and move hundreds of miles away, that's just crazyy. She has a godson here. He was born in April, and Ashley set up the babyshower. In her speech at the shower, she said, "As Jen's friend, and hopefully Dom's future godmother..." She practically begged for it, and she was so excited when she was given the role. She was even there (in the actual delivery room) when Dom was born. She told me over and over how excited she was. When Sister asked Ash if she'd miss Dom when she left, and she said, "No. It's not like I wanted to be his godmother anyways."

Really bitch, necause I remember it different. Do you want to know what she meant by "future godmother"? She meant that she thought she'd marry Brian (who never, ever treated her like a proper girlfriend, and he treated her more like a fuck buddy that he occasionally brought in front of his friends. For example, their oneyear anniversary, he forgot, then took her to sonic.)

I feel like she is giving up. I'm sorry she's doinging it. She'll never learn this way. Whatever. I hope she does well.

Lindsay Sample and I were chatting the other day about the age we're at right now. The marriage age. We're meeting our future spouses.
Weird.

I'm on my kindle right now

It's not nearly as easy to use as a neputer, but it allows me to write on my little blog to d something besides waych movies and write letters to the boyfriend. I've written 20 letters, sent 2 care packages, and been extremely bored in the last 18 days. But no matter. Because, boyfriend comes home in 10 daysss :)

Anyways. I'm bored.

Beyond belief. Like, it's to the point where if the rotc guys called me to hang out (slater, whom I strongly dislike, called and said they might go to a club tonight) I might have actually gone...

I'm sorry if this post has multiple errors. I have no fun typing on this. It sucks a little because it takes 9375835 hours for each letter to show up. So I don' really like proofreading these. So, suck it...

I'm actually pretty positive everyone I am friends with on this site stopped reading these, so I'm not really worried about upsetting anyone with my terrible mistakes...

I'm tired of this. So, goodnight all.

And the cute text of the week award goes to Danielsalsa

"Katie Hunke, you are the single most perfect person (for me) in my eyes, even though you are crazy delusional about your weight and personal image, you are beautiful to me inside and out, and even though you make (lame/mean) jokes about you being pregnant, I look forward to the day where I can start a family with you, because now after being completely away from you for more than a day I can see that you are undoubtedly the person I am going to be with for the rest of my days, and I mean this in the most serious manner possible
I love you
Daniel"

I know to the outside perspective, this may seem sudden, we've only been dating for about 5 months, but this relationship has been no work. It all just seems natural. I've never been happier. I've never felt more loved. I've never felt this special.

I am aware that his text was a giant run on sentence. He's perfect, but his grammar is not.


So, I'm living with sister for more days, then I'm staying with the boy for the week that he is back (I think we're going to san antonio or to some secluded cabin to be by ourselves for a few days), then the boy leaves AGAIN on July 5th.


Also, the pregnant jokes are not as bad as it might seem. They're usually timed very well, and he always laughs when he realizes I'm joking.

I'm not preggers.

Pretty sure that is it for now.

Sister and I are at her boyfriends stealing his interweb because neither of us has it...

Okay.
So, bye.

Katie has a...

Boyfrennnn :]

Finally. After having a crush on the boy for months, he finally realizes what a good match we are, and how awesome I really am (and ohh so modest too).

I'm a little worried about how open I am with him, but he makes me feel so comfortable.

Oh well.

I can't stop smiling for the past week. I grin like a moron when he's around (really doesn't help that he's in ROTC so I look like an idiot in formation with a giant smile on my face).
I can't help it. I'm just happy.

I hope you're all doing well (and by you all, I mean Carly and Becca and Laura, who are pretty much the only ones who check this anymore)

Luff you guys :D

It's this time of year...

That really makes me reflect and appreciate all that I have, all that I have been given.

I really am blessed.

I should just lower my standards...

They're all nice. Any one of them would make a decent boyfriend.

Well, not any one of them.

But three out of five is good enough?




It's time to cut the cord. How to get over a strong crush. Any suggestions?

Unrequited crushes

suck.

I love it when...

something unexpected springs up.

like a date.
with a smart, cute boy.
who has a motorcycle (and took me riding around town :D)